WIDE AWAKE

Generally being wide awake is great, isn't it? You feel like you could rip out trees and you have so much energy to do amazing things outside.

What if you are wide awake and it is 12.30 am and your are supposed to sleep as the alarm clock will go off at 5.30 am regardless?

Not only that pressure rests upon you, its also that: the quintesence is you are still wide awake and you can't sleep, what shall you do?

Everyone else seems to be asleep an you are lying in your bed like a restless lion ready to go hunting.

Nobody in the world seems to share this situation with you. Your body wants to sleep as it needs rest and your mind is going hundred miles an hour. All of the sudden.

Its not the moon, its not too much alcohol which keeps you awake, it's not an important test the other morning which fearfully robs your sleep: it is just what it is. But why?

Is that really important to find out the why in that case?

You try to keep every move silent while you crawl out of your bed where you can't stay any more minute, otherwise you would go insane.

You feel insane already, you feel this dry mouth where your tongue is pressed towards your jaw. Just because.

Why is being wide awake so bad when everyone else is asleep?

Who tells you you are supposed to be one of them and just sleep also?

The night is for sleeping and the day for not being tired!

I get myself downstairs and prepare a nice cup of cocoa. At least it is not 30 Degrees at night, so it feels like kind of christmassy to have some hot chocolate during a summer night to put myself back to sleep. I light up some candles.

The clock is showing 2.10 am and nobody is online!
What happened to my overseas friends? In Sydney it is only noon and I am sitting here in the middle of the night all by myself! What a test, wide awake, if I haven't mentioned that yet.

And the cocoa doesn't do the job anyway. I feel even more awake than before.

“Let's dance, Marla. And enjoy the night!” I hear the voice which excites me everytime.

Why not? I take my Ipod and put music on...and am dancing away in the candle light with my cocoa in one hand...

What a night...I never wanna swap this experience for a good nights sleep ever.